Coming to terms

I think I'm obsessed with my epilepsy at the present time. I can't stop thinking about it, I feel like I'm just going through the motions of life waiting for the next one. I am afraid to be alone just in case I have a generalised seizure. Funny how I haven't had one when I've been alone or just with the girls. I'm believing that the Lord is responsible for that one. I was going to start riding my bike on the weekend until I had thursdays seizure. I hate this. I found it good talking to Tracey on the weekend. Tracey is mum to Drew who has a series of medical problems including epilepsy. Its good to compare each others knowledge on the subject. I am trying not to stress out about the buying the house but thats a hard one. We are finding that the house is smaller than what we remember. We're having to sort out what we can fit in each room. Terry's done a great job on the carpets in the bedrooms. Unfortunately the laundry is proving a bit more difficult.
Added to that stress is the emotions regarding Aimee starting school. I'm looking forward to it because I do find being a stay at home mum difficult. Which I feel guilt with because I wanted children, I always wanted to be a mum when I was growing up. Its not hard all the time and I have got huge amounts of good memories. I'm going to miss having Aimee around. Although right at this moment she is being a tad annoying by wanting to have a string (a jelly type snack). I am determined not to give in and she is equally determined to get one.
Well I better go. Get Aimee some food before Rainbow.