Sleep!

Its very late and I've been busy all day. Yet I don't feel ready to settle down. Unfortunately I know I am tired. I haven't been sleeping well lately. I think the stress of moving. I long for a really good uninterrupted sleep. I know for a fact that I am not the only mother who suffers this way. How do we keep going? I heard once that they use sleep deprivation as a torture method. It would never work on a mother, but a man. Yeah, I can see how that would be a torture for them.
My pal Jo is in Auckland for the U2 concert. I would say that she is feeling quite on a high at the moment and won't be able to sleep for awhile. Hope Beks is happy enough to let you sleep in Jo.
The Spiritual Journalling course I am attending was quite challenging on Thurs. Trying to work out our lifes 'hinges'. The time period where there is an event, person, or other influence that changes the path you are on. One hinge of mine was when we moved back to NZ after living in Australia for 6yrs. I was nearly 11yrs when we returned. I remember feeling very awkward at that age. With the onset of puberty, it was a very confusing time. I was no longer a child but not a woman either. I had to change my life path and embrace the next phase of my life. I didn't adapt to that change well and found myself struggling to be 'acceptable' to my peers. Even when attending High School I wasn't accepted. I was too different. Too nice almost. Being from a christian home and trying to fit in at school and be 'cool' wasn't a good combination.
Its very interesting but also scary to look back at my life and really look into why I chose the path I went down. But that's another story. I'd better settle down now seen as though its 12:30am.
Goodnight to all. I think I shall sleep now.

The House

We have shifted!!!
Goodbye our dear home,
The home we loved.

White wood, high roof
Old and quaint
Character

The space we will miss,
The roses too.
And dear sweet Maggie,
Under a tree.

We loved that house,
Our first house.
Goodbye to you, goodbye.

A Trying Time

Well the pressure is really on now. We are on the countdown of 5 nights before we are staying in our new house! I am finding it surprisingly harder to pack and leave our home. This is our first house and even though we've only lived in it for 3 1/2 yrs, its the longest we've lived in one place in our 10yrs of married life! Those that know me (us) know that we are gypsy's, always moving. In fact when I look at the girls baby photos i look at the carpet to know which baby it is as we lived in a different house each baby!
I have been to the first night of the "Spiritual Journalling" course I am doing. Jo told our coffee group about it and as I am right into journalling I said YES!! It was really neat as we do the course in a cafe, which is really cool as we get to have coffee and cake and journal!! We had the usual intro's of names etc. There's about 16 of us. Then Steve introduced told us a bit about the course and introduced us to the first 'journalling method'. We were to ask ourselves "In what period of my life am I now living". He (Steve), took us through a quick relaxation excersise, then got us to journal any images, words, phrases etc that answered the question. I will share that my present period is a 'bubble' for me. A bubble that is hovering between past and future. The past being a seriously bad depressive episode and the future of us jetsetting off to America for a year or two!! Quite a difference really eh! Any way I shall keep you updated with how the course goes. If you are interested in finding out about the course then visit www.joonajourney.blogspot.com then go to her links and click on emergentkiwi (i think that's it).
Just to waffle on a bit more, I had a very successful tupperware party today that my sis-in-law was the demonstrator. Well done Sue!! And thanks to all who made it here. I have to say that Tupperware has changed and is so much more modern now. And some really neat stuff. Got to love that sifter!! I better go and catch up on some other stuff.

The battle of the wills

Today started off being a really good day, mind you, I think that had to do with girls at school and Aimee at preschool! But when Aimee got home at lunch, a non-stop grizzle session. Right up to collecting the school girls, I naively thought she would be distracted. NOT!! I am fast losing patience as I am tired. I know I should think up a creative activity that's both stimulating and fun. With tiredness hanging over me, I just can't achieve that one. Not today. I shall continue telling myself that she had sufficient stimulatation and education at preschool. I shall have to think up another justification on the days that are non-preschool days if I am tired on those days.
I love my girls, just not the stubborness and strong wills. (I'm sure they don't get that from me! :-) ).